Showing posts with label thoughts. Show all posts
Showing posts with label thoughts. Show all posts

Monday, 18 June 2012

100 words for grown ups week 46


 This week the lovely Julia has set the challenge to include the words
...in the dark recess of my mind...


This week's effort is a little darker than my usual offerings.
I am still trying with the 50 000 words! Up to 27K. Am in a bit of a hole (rather a large one at the moment) so am going to the gym for my mile swim to see if that will get my mind whirring again. In the meantime, hope you enjoy.




Turmoil.

It’s early morning and I can’t sleep.
 Again.
When I turn to look at him, I see the man I loved.  Those thick dark lashes  ( wasted on a man),  hair  falling carelessly across his eyes, ears with their crumpled edges from one too many rugby games.
I still love him in these moments.
Safe.
 But I know that today, in the dark recess of my mind, I will plan when to kill him. He has driven me to this. I know exactly what I need to do, but will I have the strength to go through with it?
Will I have the strength to walk away? 

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